Listen man I can’t do this anymore. It's getting to be too much for me. My brain has been driving me nuts for far too long. Why does it seem like it’s getting worse again? I don’t know why but I’m starting to go crazy again. Ever since I made out with Chey I’ve been overly attached. And then on Tuesday when we cuddled up it made me even more attached. I just feel like it’s all starting to crash down again after that conversation last night. And I know it’s wrong what we did. I know she has a boyfriend. This is all fucked up. I fell in love with her. I think she fell in love with me but I’m not sure. I want to make music but I’m running out of inspiration and motivation. I don’t want to go back to school. It’s starting to get too much for me at that place. I’m starting to be less mentally and physically healthy. I feel like I’m overboard and obsessive. I just need a hug from her right now. I can’t do this anymore. It’s all crashing down. It’s been getting worse and worse each time it crashes down. The problem is my mood hasn’t changed for a decent amount of time. I feel like I need something to distract me. But then I’m just avoiding the problem. I’ve been distracting myself from the problem all day because it’s too hard to process right now. The obsessions and angst and anger and sadness has been getting worse every day. I need someone or something to pull me out of this. I just wanna be loved unconditionally. But it’s always so complicated. There’s always so many strings attached. I feel like the world is moving too fast and slow. I’m starting to feel genuinely stupid and mentally impaired. I’m too honest with people. I trust people way too fast. I get obsessed hard and fast. I looked at old photos of myself a while ago and got scared. It's scary how shit happens idk. I need help. I had a therapy session recently and it made me feel like shit when I actually opened up to him. It felt like my old life was chasing me back when I had that therapy session. I don’t want to do therapy again. It made me feel shitty. I want to cry but I just can’t. It’s all numb. I don’t want to take my ADHD meds. They make me feel like shit. I want life but sometimes life really sucks. I’ve been getting better at guitar. It helps kinda. I have too much built up inside. I feel like a ticking time bomb. I wish there were powerful enough songs to help with how I feel. I wish it was easier between me and Chey. I don’t know where we stand after last night. I really want to love her. I really hope we can be together after all this stuff blows over. I think I am mentally ill again. I am very upset by my school haircut rule because I want to grow long hair. It’s too late to switch schools now though. I need to be in somebody's arms getting kisses right now. It was amazing on Tuesday but it gave me a lot of mental backlash. I want to be with her and treat her right. But I have to wait and idk if I can do that and idk if my time is being wasted
This dream appears to reflect deep emotional turmoil and the feeling of being overwhelmed by various aspects of life. The dreamer's brain and mental state are described as driving them "nuts," suggesting a high level of distress and frustration. The dreamer mentions becoming overly attached after making out and cuddling with Chey, despite knowing that she has a boyfriend. This emotional attachment is causing inner conflict and guilt.
The dreamer also expresses a lack of inspiration and motivation in pursuing their passion for music, as well as a growing dissatisfaction with school and declining mental and physical health. There is a sense of feeling overwhelmed and obsessed, with a desperate need for comfort and unconditional love. The dreamer acknowledges the complications and strings attached to love, perhaps indicating a fear of getting hurt or being unable to find the love they desire. They express a desire for distraction but recognize that avoiding problems will not solve them.
The dreamer mentions a therapy session that made them feel "shitty" and a reluctance to pursue therapy again, indicating a resistance or negative experience with seeking professional help. They also express feeling numb, not wanting to take medication for their ADHD, and finding solace in playing the guitar. The dreamer mentions feeling like a ticking time bomb, possibly alluding to repressed emotions or unresolved issues that are building up inside.
Overall, the dream depicts a deep longing for emotional support, stability, and love, while struggling with internal conflicts, mental health challenges, and a sense of being trapped or unable to change certain aspects of their life. It suggests a need for self-reflection, honest communication, and seeking appropriate support to address these overwhelming emotions and find a healthier path forward.